Chapter 1582
Chapter 1582 - 1578: Differences
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In life, there are many choices that may seem foolish and completely irrational.
But perhaps, this is the twisted charm of human nature... how endearing it is.
𝑓𝑟𝑒𝘦𝓌𝑒𝑏𝑛𝑜𝘷𝑒𝘭.𝒸𝘰𝑚
"...Is it worth it?"
"It’s not about whether it’s worth it or not, but about what should be done... you understand, right?"
"I understand."
Lu Ping’an sighed, turned his head slightly, with some helplessness, yet somewhat joyful.
He is not a Sage, and he is glad his friends are not either.... Even if one must save others, priorities need to be set. If one were to indiscriminately save everyone without discrimination or preference, it would be like trying to extinguish fire with a cup of water; the fire won’t be put out, but the water will be exhausted.
"I will help you handle it... but don’t expect it to be without consequences."
"Thank you."
"Guan Xinxian" smiled calmly, but through him, Lu Ping’an could see the Divine Boat outside Earth’s atmosphere.
More accurately, only half of the Divine Boat... It resembled an Ancient Tree laid flat, the upper half made of wooden body, possessing more humanity and sanctity compared to the Divine Boat Lu Ping’an had seen before.
The humanoid figure atop the Ancient Tree seemed to exude infinite pity, yet also seemed filled with anger.
Its arms..... perhaps what could be called arms, were mostly broken at the base, but one of them clutched a rope.
Lu Ping’an was somewhat surprised, surprised that he had grown to the point where he could look directly at a deity level being, and surprised at the weakness of this "Evil God."
"....Rest."
"Guan Xinxian" nodded, then disappeared without a trace.
At this moment, he was no longer a mortal; the Starcraft in outer orbit was his true body.
Yet, that broken posture was like a limb torn from the ground... in fact, he had forcibly torn off a part of himself to leave Mercury 42.
On Mercury 42, in the past year, he had actually begun to transform into a Deity.
However, unlike the normal Deities, he was "crowned"... The world longed for his achievement, granting him lots of power (contamination), and in the Extraordinary World power and will are inseparable.
To borrow the world’s blessings to become a Deity is also to make the world a part of yourself, to integrate into this world.
In fact, Guan Xinxian was able to accept such a result...
"To become a savior, and also to seek eternal revenge against the Octopus, heh, could there be a better future than this?"
Thus, he successfully persuaded Lu Ping’an to help him prepare for Ascension.
Lu Ping’an did his best to increase the number of believers of the God of Redemption in the Mortal World, simply to provide more human anchors, to possess as much humanity and Self as possible.
But perhaps, it was his efforts that "harmed" the other party.
"....From True God to Evil God, is it worth it?"
That man’s smile might just be the answer.
From the beginning, it wasn’t a matter of worth, but a necessity.
That "you should understand" smile, as if to say "You and I are the same, some things don’t require calculation from the start. When encountered, one will just do them."
"Humph, I am no Sage..." Lu Ping’an sighed, unsure if he would actually know when that moment arrived, but Lu understood Guan.
Always had.
Becoming the God of Redemption on Mercury 42, was it really for redemption... Redemption was his desire, his day-to-day, his ideal, but it wasn’t the highest desire in his heart.
Revenge, it is the divine duty he is destined for. For the God of Struggle and Redemption, being able to perpetually bleed the Octopus is his utmost desire.
Redemption, too, is revenge.
Struggle, too, is revenge.
Saving, is also revenge.
Both love and hatred can serve as motivations. The unforgettable nightmares become eternal hatred. To become a saved one, one must survive. Perhaps for him, it is also an eternal agony.
Saving others, is redeeming others, and perhaps also redeeming oneself... even if it is just a brief "pain relief."
Close your eyes, fall asleep, and perhaps you will hear screams and questions.
"Why, why is it you who lives?"
"Your life, what have you done with it?"
"Why wasn’t it me who survived, even though I had many more dreams..."
Hallucinations and visions are not considered severe mental illnesses; it’s the heartfelt accusations that are the unavoidable tortures.
Lu Ping’an saw through everything, yet he does not deny Guan Xinxian’s "saintliness."
After all, in Lu’s eyes, judging a person is not about what he says or thinks, but about what he does.
A decade of the road to redemption, countless saved ones, when that grace finally becomes the anchor point for the God of Redemption, Lu Ping’an is not at all surprised.
The rapid expansion of the Church of Redemption God is also due to his commendable deeds...if a being who has saved the world day after day for ten years cannot represent hope and redemption, who can?
The vision of mortals is sometimes myopic, but if time is allowed to flow, looking from a longer perspective, they appear to be quite rational... they know who is good to them, they know who the deceitful bastards are. Baseless "sinners" become timeless heroes, while those once standing at the pinnacle among subjects kneel at his feet.
In fact, the human anchor point of the God of Redemption exceeded expectations. Lu Ping’an has no doubt that after truly achieving Ascension, he will still retain most of his humanity.
"Perhaps it is this humanity that doomed him... It’s irrational. But, should I be happy for him?"
Thoughtfully, Lu Ping’an smiled.
In the past, Lu Ping’an wouldn’t commit acts that humiliated others... Letting him give up hatred, making him choose the so-called love and future, is the greatest humiliation.
Lu Ping’an knows that outsiders cannot make decisions for him; whether or not he can move on depends only on himself... Yet, not being able to might also be okay, perhaps for him, this is happiness.
"Unable to endure forgetting, unable to bear becoming a fortunate one, the worst post-trauma symptoms..."
As a friend, all Lu Ping’an can do is help him fulfill his wish.
Even Lu Ping’an himself didn’t expect that he’d come here to see Guan Xinxian, to see that formative Divine Boat tearing itself apart.
"Compared to hatred, it’s rather about not letting go... love, perhaps..."
Compared to revenge, he ultimately chose to save.
Even if unable to Ascend, unable to take revenge, he still comes back to protect.
If there is only one portion of power, if there is only one life, if possible, he hopes it is used for saving.
Lu Ping’an closed his eyes, the losses of the Divine Boat were severe, borrowed from the world of Mercury 42 requiring double repayment.
Betrayal has its price... The fact that this "Evil God" can exist is probably a streak of unbelievable luck.
"An Xin, I am here."
Lu Ping’an said nothing, but he knew the other party understood... I will handle everything, rest assuredly, wait and fulfill your long-held wish.
"Let’s talk with the Official first. Right, I also need Lin Nu’s Church’s help, perhaps, I should meet Lin Nu, meet my... God?"
— End of Chapter 1582 —